About a week ago I made a post here that I’m a nurse who’s been in a relationship with this guy who really loves me and did everything to make my life better but got into an accident after catching me cheating because he was drunk and driving.
Just last 3 days, I got a call from his mom that he’s passed away due to traumatic brain injuries, internal bleeding and spinal cord injuries. I seriously can’t get over it and I feel like it’s a dream but it’s so real. For the past two days now, I’ve not been able to sleep peacefully because I just keep seeing his handsome innocent face flashing my eyes anything I blink my eyes. I have no one to tell what actually happened to because I feel that I’d be hated by everyone and called a murderer.
I can’t ever forgive myself for what I’ve done. Causing the death of an innocent young man. I remember how he used to worry me with having six kids with me and give them the best childhood and life we struggled for and how he’ll take me on vacation to the states on our ten years anniversary if we get married hopefully. He was a family man and loving man, he never visited my parents empty handed. Deladem always brings something home when he visits my parents.
He had so many dreams i can’t even talk off and I killed them all with my evil act. I’m having so much suicidal thoughts because his death is really haunting me and I don’t think I’ll ever find peace. Deladem Daniel I hope you forgive me wherever your soul and Spirit is and I hope God to have mercy upon me. Who knows, I may end my life after this post. I’m done with life because I just can’t take this guilt anymore.