I am a very secretive person and don’t like sharing my problems with anyone but I think I need an advice on this.
So I am a girl who works and likes to depend on myself. Somewhere around 2017/2018 I had a crush on this gentleman, I will call him Kim, but by then I was in a relationship. I was kinda close to this Kim but I saw that he didn’t feel the same way I was feeling so I decided to ignore him. I attend the same church with him so in as much as I try to ignore him, I can’t but I managed to.
Fast forward, I broke up with my guy and thought I had a chance with Kim because he asked me one time if I was going out and I said no. But this guy Kim kept ignoring me and I decided to forget him because he is after all older than me but not with a huge margin and I thought he wasn’t interested.
Fast forward, i met another guy who asked me out and after sometime we started dating. Few months after dating this new guy, there comes Kim. Kim started showing me attention and all and this got me thinking. It arose the feeling I had for him. But mind you I love this new guy and he also loves me so much but he is so jealous and low key want to restrict me from certain things and from my male friends. Majority of my friends are guys but I try to limit them when I started dating but this my new guy want me to stop being friends with them.
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Kim invited me to his house several times and in one of the visit we had an intercourse. He told me he also had a crush on me way back but couldn’t tell me but he thinks he is now ready and don’t want to see that another guy has come for me. And now this Kim guy wants to get married to me and is ready to introduce me to his family but I am not ready to get married tho. I am even confused at the moment. When I started dating my new guy I told myself I am going to stick to him forever because he is a nice guy but he is a little stingy and now this Kim guy has brought himself and is doing the opposite of my guy.
I love them both but I love Kim more than my new guy but I don’t want to break my new guy’s heart and I have not told Kim that I am dating too. Just this weekend Kim took me out and reminded me of his intention to take me to see his parents so I should let him know when I am ready. I feel like bringing up something to breakup with my new guy and be with Kim but I don’t want to.
I am confused at the moment and need all your advice on how to go by this. I will be reading in the comment section.